For anyone that knows me, this may come as a shock. Amidst all the changes going on in my life right now, I haven't really had a huge meltdown yet. Sure, I've cried, but it's mostly been silent tears slipping down my cheeks a few at a time and [for the most part] short lived.
That's about to change.
I can feel it.
Other Caleb leaves for basic in a week, and I'm not ready. I'm just not. His departure is the "big finale" end to the best summer of my life. Soon, all I'll have is the precious memories I made this summer and my best friend/little sister Helen.
It keeps me awake at night, lying there thinking about how much I miss Little Brother and how much I already miss Other Caleb. It feels like there's a gaping hole in my chest, which I suppose makes sense considering that a tiny part of my heart is in Ohio, and another tiny part of my heart will soon be in Texas. It hurts.
So, since I haven't really had one of my famous [at least in our family] meltdowns yet, I've been just waiting for it to happen. I know it's coming. I know it will happen when I least expect it. And I know I'll wake up the morning after with the worst headache in the world [we call it a crying hangover in our familiy... worst EVER!].
For instance, on my way to work this morning, "Stayin' Alive" came on the radio, and all of a sudden, out of nowhere, there I was with more tears streaming down my face. I don't know why, but memories of a summer road trip to Mason City were suddenly so vivid and clear in my mind, it overwhelmed me.
And so begins the emotional journey that is sure to cover the next few months. Missing people, re-living memories in my mind (and out loud with my best friend), and patiently waiting for what's next.
*Be Advised- hugs will be much needed AND much appreciated over the next few months. They may even be solicited. Just FYI.
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
Sunday, August 19, 2012
Excuses
Where on earth has Lacy been? I know it's been a few weeks since my last post, but I promise you, I have a good excuse. Several of them, actually.
Excuse #1: Family Vacation!
On August 4, we piled into the family van and headed west to see my mom's side of the family in Nebraska and Colorado. We spent Saturday, Sunday, Monday, and most of Tuesday in Po-Dunk, Nebraska, with my grandparents and cousin. Tuesday night, we headed to my favorite place in the world: Aunt Lisa & Uncle Dave's in Denver. We spent Wednesday in Colorado Springs visiting Garden of the Gods and Focus on the Family. Thursday morning we headed back to Po-Dunk, and spent the evening with my mom's little brother and his family and our grandparents. Friday, Great Uncle Wally & Great Aunt Marlene (the BEST great uncle and aunt EVER) came down for the day. Saturday, we piled back into the family van, and headed back to Des Moines. Whirlwind trip? YES! Totally worth it? YES! Too much time with the family? NEVER!
Excuse #2: Caleb is Gone! :(
On Tuesday, I spent the evening with my Yellow House family. Why? Well... Because on Wednesday, they took off on an adventure to deliver my best little brother to Cedarville. So Tuesday night was filled with "family" time. And then... the goodbye. The tearful, sad, painful goodbye. Three months ago, I had NO IDEA that this young man would become such a huge part of my life, but the fact is that he did. I can't imagine life without my favorite little brother, and while I know that time will go fast, and he's where he needs to be, and that he's gonna grow tremendously over the next few months... well.... I already miss him more than I can say. And Thanksgiving can't come fast enough. Thankfully, there's skype, texting, phone calls, and facebook! I love you, Buddy! :)
Excuse #3: Other Caleb is Leaving, too!
In two very short weeks, Other Caleb, AKA Fogell, is leaving for basic training. Yeah... another HUGE part of my life is being ripped away from me. Only THIS part of my life won't have access to texting, or skype, or even phone calls. Nope, this girl will soon be doing one of the things she does best: writing letters. Letter after letter. Day after day. This is where actions speak louder than words. It's easy to say now, while he's still here, that I'll write faithfully with encouraging words and hope, but once he's gone... that's when my words will mean the most because my "words" WILL be actions.
So there you have it. The latest with Lacy. Excuses and all.
Here are a few pictures from vacation.... Enjoy!
Excuse #1: Family Vacation!
On August 4, we piled into the family van and headed west to see my mom's side of the family in Nebraska and Colorado. We spent Saturday, Sunday, Monday, and most of Tuesday in Po-Dunk, Nebraska, with my grandparents and cousin. Tuesday night, we headed to my favorite place in the world: Aunt Lisa & Uncle Dave's in Denver. We spent Wednesday in Colorado Springs visiting Garden of the Gods and Focus on the Family. Thursday morning we headed back to Po-Dunk, and spent the evening with my mom's little brother and his family and our grandparents. Friday, Great Uncle Wally & Great Aunt Marlene (the BEST great uncle and aunt EVER) came down for the day. Saturday, we piled back into the family van, and headed back to Des Moines. Whirlwind trip? YES! Totally worth it? YES! Too much time with the family? NEVER!
Excuse #2: Caleb is Gone! :(
On Tuesday, I spent the evening with my Yellow House family. Why? Well... Because on Wednesday, they took off on an adventure to deliver my best little brother to Cedarville. So Tuesday night was filled with "family" time. And then... the goodbye. The tearful, sad, painful goodbye. Three months ago, I had NO IDEA that this young man would become such a huge part of my life, but the fact is that he did. I can't imagine life without my favorite little brother, and while I know that time will go fast, and he's where he needs to be, and that he's gonna grow tremendously over the next few months... well.... I already miss him more than I can say. And Thanksgiving can't come fast enough. Thankfully, there's skype, texting, phone calls, and facebook! I love you, Buddy! :)
Excuse #3: Other Caleb is Leaving, too!
In two very short weeks, Other Caleb, AKA Fogell, is leaving for basic training. Yeah... another HUGE part of my life is being ripped away from me. Only THIS part of my life won't have access to texting, or skype, or even phone calls. Nope, this girl will soon be doing one of the things she does best: writing letters. Letter after letter. Day after day. This is where actions speak louder than words. It's easy to say now, while he's still here, that I'll write faithfully with encouraging words and hope, but once he's gone... that's when my words will mean the most because my "words" WILL be actions.
So there you have it. The latest with Lacy. Excuses and all.
Here are a few pictures from vacation.... Enjoy!
At the Park
At the Lake
Mud!!
Garden of the Gods
The Girls
One of Odyssey's Finest: WOOTEN!!!
Whit's End :)
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